Regarding my destiny….
Have I already missed the boat? Has my calling already passed me by, and now I have to settle for something less? Have I made too many mistakes for even the grace of God to redeem my situation in life and set me on my destined course? What if this IS my destined course? What then? It’s not what I wanted and not what I thought life was going to be. Or, what if I never realize my destiny? Maybe it hasn’t passed me by, but what if it never comes? Are my own inadequacies, or fears, or just daily attitudes preventing me from ever reaching my full potential? How can I reconcile what has been spoken over me with what I’m dealing with in my life right now? What if the words were wrong, what if the “prophets” mis-spoke? What if I’ve been TOO timid in waiting? What if I’ve been too bold and screwed it up long before I knew what I was doing? What if the consequences of my past actions are just too great? What if I just can’t be trusted anymore?
What if I NEVER “get it”?